2months

Today i celebrate my my 2 months of not smoking
though with all this drama going on i feel
like i need one to calm my nerves
yet i have to be strong but its just getting so tiring
today i also await your call..
you said "we need to talk"
the same words you used the first time
that made me cry...yet
this time it is different i will not cry
i know that its meant to be and even though i will miss you
you will always be my friend...
i must move on no matter how hard..
its time to find someone my own age..
i know u were young yet u were mature enough for me
but i can not stand you doing this to me over again
i must be strong and continue my journey ahead...
life is a grave ...digging it faster today..

today...

today its been two days that i haven't heard from you...
i am tired that u just disappear from me
i am happy you found a new religion and that its making you
change for the good..no more drugs
no more stupidity
yet it seems that even though my prayer was
answered it is making us fall apart
all those talks about leaving together and
crusin all around the world...
of crying together of being there for one another through good and bad...
i hate that my parents don't understand me
and criticizing me for how i dress
why cant they understand me
and trust me and just let me be with you??
ive been good helping out taking care of my dad
being hopeful everyday
quit smoking, quit being an ass
but yet nothing helps and it seems my freedom will never come
yet i stay positive for i keep praying that some day
i will be free to really enjoy life because that is my dream..
i miss not being with you but i come to realize that we both live in different worlds
as much as i care for u
i am tired of always worrying im tired of always hopping
that someday we will be together
so i must let you go and let you live life as for me
my time will come
but u know that ull always be my partner in crime...
my one and only best friend..
life is a grave...