ash wednesday

Yesterday i went to help out over at my church because it was ash Wednesday and i have to say i felt really good. i saw a lot o f people from high school and even people from elementary it was nice. i also saw my friend who stopped talking to me after he found himself a girl friend..yup the guy I've talked about in this blog... it was weird i never well i guess when i was there i was hoping to see him but when i did i wished i didn't because he showed me how ignorant he was. he changed his religion and well he was over at a catholic church because of his fam. but anyways he did things that bothered me like being disrespectful at church and i respect that he changed his religion but i would want him to respect the other religions..i mean why did he show up if he didn't want to be there? in a way i feel that he did it because i was there and he wanted to show off but its dumb.. i guess i figured out that he wasn't really that mature... anywhos i also saw his cousin, i had a crush on him before i even liked this other dude jiji..it was cool hes more laid back down to earth and i could also really trust him..i think he was trying to help me out to get his cousin jealous because he kept hugging me and just paying attention to me it was funny. all i have to say i well mi am happy that i had the chance to really go out and help out my community. i had the chance to see some old friends and to also really see the real world. i guess i would have never really expected to experience the things i did on that day..and well for now life goes on with or with out a guy.. i feel confident of myself and happy for the first time. life is a grave and i dig it..